I Am What I Am


Today is my birthday. The moon was full when I was born, the skies early spring’s deep blue-purple, the stars brilliant, even in New York City.

I was blessed to be born into laughter!  My mother arrived at the hospital only minutes before my birth. Back in those days, medication was routine, but my mom pushed away the mask with nitrous oxide, saying she was fine (after only 45 minutes of labor, why wouldn’t she be?) and then she was pushing!

As I emerged she commented, “I don’t know why I suddenly find this so funny!” So I was born into a delivery room full of laughing nurses and doctors. 

I always thought that colored my approach to existence. Laughter is such a divine gift! Right up there with friendship, flowers and birds.

So I celebrate my existence today — with thanks to my mom and those laughing folks who set the tone for a lifetime.

From the Osho Zen Tarot:

You are not accidental. Existence needs you. Without you something will be missing in existence and nobody can replace it. That’s what gives you dignity, that the whole existence will miss you. The stars and sun and moon, the trees and birds and earth – everything in the universe will feel a small place is vacant which cannot be filled by anybody except you.
This gives you a tremendous joy, a fulfillment that you are related to existence, and existence cares for you. Once you are clean and clear, you can see tremendous love falling on you from all dimensions.

Osho God is Dead: Now Zen is the Only Living Truth Chapter 1

This naked figure sits on the lotus leaf of perfection, gazing at the beauty of the night sky. She knows that “home” is not a physical place in the outside world, but an inner quality of relaxation and acceptance. The stars, the rocks, the trees, the flowers, fish and birds – all are our brothers and sisters in this dance of life. We human beings tend to forget this, as we pursue our own private agendas and believe we must fight to get what we need. But ultimately, our sense of separateness is just an illusion, manufactured by the narrow preoccupations of the mind.
Now is the time to look at whether you are allowing yourself to receive the extraordinary gift of feeling “at “home” wherever you are. If you are, be sure to take time to savor it so it can deepen and remain with you. If on the other hand you’ve been feeling like the world is out to get you, it’s time to take a break. Go outside tonight and look at the stars.

Happy everyday to all!


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